My weight-loss journey and Thinking Slimmer / post #21

weight loss journey

It’s been a couple of weeks since my last weight-loss post.

This has been for a number of reasons:

  1. motivation has been evading me
  2. I’ve not been ‘feeling it
  3. a feeling of complete and utter failure has swept over me
  4. my self-esteem is low
  5. realising this is going to be really hard work and
  6. our scales decided to pack up!!

Having purchased a nice new shiny pair of scales I jumped back on to see yet more fluctuations in my weight, bringing my total weight-loss to date to 4lbs *sighs* not good.

I’ve been feeling quite down about the whole thing and wondering to myself where do I go from here, as clearly something needed to change in order to re-ignite my passion and my commitment to losing the weight.

….. enter Thinking Slimmer …..

It’s funny how sometimes things just happen upon us.  Just when we need it most.

I truly believe that things happen for a reason – there’s always a lesson to be learned even if we don’t know it or understand it at the time.

So feeling very down about my lack of losing weight I was thrilled (and relieved to be honest) to be chosen to join a focus group with Thinking Slimmer for a six week programme.

Obviously, I headed straight to their website for a look around where it stated:

Just imagine: No more yo-yo diets. No more feeling guilty. No more snacking. No more misery.

You’ll be in control of food. It’s easy, effortless and fits in with your busy life. All you have to do is listen.

Feeling quite positive about what I was reading, I thought yep this is definitely worth a try.  There’s nothing to lose… but lbs!

So, with the support of a focus group on Facebook and downloading my two slimpods to re-tune my mind and help me to make healthy lifestyle choices I’m back on track.  I chose ‘Drop two dress sizes’ and ‘Beat that sweet-tooth’ (yes I have a very sweet tooth) for my slimpods – these are available as both downloads and cd’s for ease.

So I’m back.  I’m feeling positive and motivated and I am going to achieve my goal.  It may take a while but I’ll get there.

I’m now on day two and I’ve already made healthier choices… like not munching on MasterB’s left-over sandwich in his lunch-box and turning down a glass of Pimms.

Things are on the up and I can’t wait to start seeing the changes.

Please stick with me on my journey and if you’re trying to lose weight too, I’d love to hear how you’re doing it.

So from now on I shouldn’t be shying away from my weekly weigh-in post, I hope to be shouting about it lol!

Carpe Diem x

PS:  Oh and if you wanted to give it a go yourself, Trevor Silvester has THE most scrummy voice like ever!!!

If you’d like to read my weight-loss journey so far, you can do that here x


Disclosure: For the purpose of joining a six week programme, focus group and review, Thinking Slimmer sent me two slimpods.  However, all opinions are 100% honest and are my own.

My weight-loss journey continues … #20

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I thought it was time for one of my healthy lifestyle weigh-in posts.

For those who regularly read my blog and my posts about my weight-loss journey in particular, you’ll know that I had set myself a mini-target to lose a minimum of one stone before our holiday in May.

I didn’t make it.

Things didn’t go to plan, but I was determined it wouldn’t spoil our holiday to the beautiful island of Antigua.  And it didn’t.  We had a great time and I didn’t stress about my weight.  That’s not to say I wouldn’t have loved to have been one stone lighter of course.

I was really pleased to only put on 2lb’s on holiday – all things considered I didn’t think that was too bad.

Now I’ll be totally honest… since being back from hols I haven’t really been able to focus 100% for some reason and I’ve been fluctuating week to week.

Put on, lose, put on, lose blah blah blah…

So I need to seriously re-focus my mind and get back on it.

I don’t want to be over-weight.  It makes me unhappy.  It’s unhealthy.  And I don’t like myself because of it.  And it’s not a good example to set for young MasterB.  He calls me his ‘squidgy marshmallow‘ – it’s a term of endearment when he’s snuggling into me, but let’s be honest, it’s probably not the best words to describe your mum.

Only I can change it and turn things around.

So, here we go again.

My weigh-in this week showed a 1lb gain on last week (where I had stayed the same).  That put’s my total weight loss to date at 5lb.

Not great, but 5lb’s is 5lb’s, so that’s my starting point this week.

I’m going to achieve a loss this week.

In the words of one of my dear blogging pals, the lovely Lucy at Mrs H’s Favourite things, I’m going to stop faffing, and start doing!!

Are you struggling to focus?  Any wise words of wisdom?

Carpe Diem x

My weigh-in #19 and the truth!

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I haven’t posted a weigh-in post for a little while.

This is mostly because the numbers were going in the wrong direction.

Up not down.

And this was subsequently getting me down and I just didn’t feel like writing about it.

I had set my original mini-target to lose a minimum of 1stone before our holiday at the end of May to Antigua – unfortunately I didn’t achieve this.  In fact far from it and if I’m honest I felt a complete failure.

I don’t know what went wrong, but the weight just wasn’t coming off and although I didn’t give up just before hols, I didn’t have the same determination because I felt like I had already failed.

Not good.

I still feel fairly de-motivated if I’m honest – having put on 2lbs during our holiday (which I thought wasn’t too bad all things considered) I was surprised when I hopped on the scales this week to find I hadn’t lost.  I know for a fact I didn’t eat as much last week as I did on holiday so it just doesn’t make sense to me.  Excuse me whilst I ‘Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!

So, to bring you bang up-to-date, for ease let’s call this weigh-in #19 (Monday, 1 June) – a 2lb gain bringing my total weight loss to date to – – – 5lbs.

That’s pretty rubbish when you think about it and not one I’m proud of … but I guess the good news is at least I’ve lost something since the beginning of the year.

I’m not going to give up and I’m still determined to lose the weight, although it’s obviously going to be a lot longer and harder road than I had first thought.

I’ve stopped somewhere along the road keeping a food diary, so I need to re-start that – writing everything single thing down that I eat and drink.  That in itself is my target for this coming week.  I’ll let you know if I stick to it.


I always thought mini-targets were a good idea.  Maybe they’re not and put too much pressure on?  What do you think?  Thoughts and ideas are welcome to help me get my mojo back on.

Carpe Diem x

If you’d like to read my weight-loss journey so far, you can do that here x

I’ve linked this post up with Beau Twins for #WellbeingWednesday

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Weigh-in #18 … the surprise one!

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Although it feels like it’s still Sunday, it is of course Monday – here in the UK we’re enjoying the May day bank holiday – yay an extra long weekend.  With a Monday comes weigh-in day.

So before I give you the numbers, let me tell you a bit about my week.

I was really disappointed with my gain last week (which btw *whispers* was 2lb).  In fact I’ll go so far as to say I was gob smacked as well as being totally gutted.  I knew I hadn’t been absolutely 100% but I also hadn’t been awful and didn’t warrant, I felt, putting on 2lbs.

But I did and I had to live with that.  Unfortunately, I didn’t live with that very well.  I probably had the worst week since starting my weight-loss journey at the beginning of January.

I was prepared for at least a 2lb gain again this week.

Not good considering our holiday and with that my first mini-target (to lose 1stone) is now less than three weeks away.

There was, however, my second FitSteps class and I’m so pleased that I loved it just as much as the first one.  Such fun and I love that it brings back all my dancing memories.  If you haven’t read about that very first class, you can here.

You get the gist though – basically not a great week and expecting the worse.

So, here you have it:  Week 19 with my weigh-in #18 on Monday, 4 May

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Yes, that’s 5lbs off and I’m very happy with that!  To date that’s a total of 11lbs.

The thing is it’s just too weird.  I honestly don’t understand how I can have lost 5lb last week.  Admittedly the week before I felt I shouldn’t have put on the 2lb, so let’s take one of those off, but even accounting for that it’s my biggest loss to date.

I have no idea what my body is playing at, but I just hope it doesn’t all pile back on this week.

I’m going to be as on it as I can be this week as maybe now I can still achieve that 1stone before we shoot off on holiday – that really would make my holiday even better.

I love the fact that there also appears to be a heart on my -5lb pic – coincidence?

Here’s to a good, positive week.

Carpe Diem x

If you’d like to catch up on my weight-loss journey from the beginning of January this year, you can visit my page here x

Weigh-in #17 at week 18…

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‘You are what you think you are’ …

How true is that.

I totally believe the saying and it can actually have a huge impact on you personally.

Unfortunately, for me, at this moment in time, I am having a hard time in believing in myself in a positive way and I guess the saying can also have a negative affect.

It’s like I’m believing I’m over-weight and gonna stay that way, I’m waaaay post-40 and feeling it … and so fueling these thoughts and making them worse.

So what’s gone on this week?

Well, I actually thought it wasn’t too bad a week and I sat down with my lovely mum last Friday morning over a cuppa and had one of our girlie chats.

It was all good.  All positive.  We were both ‘on it‘ so far as the healthy eating was concerned and feeling up-beat about life.

In true Paul McKenna style, I allowed myself to sort of eat what I wanted when I wanted and admit to a cadbury’s chocolate egg and a couple of pieces of MrD’s Easter toblerone Saturday evening (well he did offer).  No alcohol passed my lips until Friday evening when I only had 1 1/2 glasses of wine and the same Saturday evening – I was quite pleased with that.  No alcohol Sunday.

Time for the scales to come out of the closet … Day 119 (!!!) Monday, 27 April – Week 18 … a gain.

Extreme disappointment, anguish, disappointment, anger at myself, disappointment, unbelieving and yet more disappointment washed over me.  I’ll even admit to a few tear pricks.

Not a good start to my day.

I was on a real downer.

What was the point?

What on earth was I doing wrong?

Why?

How can this be happening?

I’m a failure!

Just a few of the thoughts going through my mind.

A bit later in the day, I had time to catch up with a few of the blogs that I like to follow.

A couple of posts I came across really resonated with me and it reminded me ‘You are what you think you are’.

One of the blog posts was from Honest Mum Be who you want to be‘ –

Although Vickie of Honest Mum is talking about her career in this particular post it applies to all areas of your life.

She said:

I could be whomever I wanted to be, whenever I wanted, on my terms and in my time, and as with creativity, titles are always in flux and I could appropriate many.

It was just down to me.

Yes the internet is democratic, the playing fields have expanded, but in any area, you have the choice to create the job and life you want to lead.

So tell yourself the same, in the mirror, on paper, or in your head if you prefer, that you are exactly you want to be- an author, a designer, an entrepreneur, a painter, a writer, a blogger-now go tell the world.

The time is now…

All day I’ve been thinking lots and lots and know that only I can change this and that my perception of ME also has to change before I can move forward.

There’s a lot of work to do and unfortunately for me I’m not going to have reached the target I set myself for our amazing holiday to Antigua (just three weeks now, woohoo but boo on the weight front).

However that’s still three weeks to be positive and ensure I am making healthy choices during that time.

I’m going to do my best.

Does anyone-else really struggle with the whole weight loss thing and have any other good tips to pass on.  I’m all ears.

Carpe Diem x

To find out how my weight-loss journey has gone from week one, you can read my up-dates here…

My weekly weigh-in #17

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It’s Monday which means it the time of the week for the scales to come out.

I stand before them each week and more often than not mutter ‘pleeeeease‘ … although of course by that time it’s waaaaay tooooo late.

It was the same this morning.

So, how did I do? – – – weigh-in at week 17, day 112, Monday, 20 April:

On I hop – stayed the same – get back off feeling deflated and useless all over again.

The last two weeks have been half term for us and with lots of days out and friends over it has been hard.  I know I should have the willpower, self-discipline etc etc but I suppose the honest answer is; I don’t.  Well I didn’t over the last two weeks anyway.

It’s not good enough and I feel like I’ve let myself down big time.  By now I should have been well on my way to at least one stone and to be honest I was really hoping for more.

However, I’m still at that niggling 8lb loss.

8lb’s is 8lb’s and I’m not knocking that obviously, but …….


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Ok, so it’s a new week and even though I didn’t lose last week I’m feeling positive about the week ahead.

I am setting myself a mini-target this week of 2lb. 

One friend has already told me that if I don’t hit the 2lb target my wine privileges for the next week will be removed.  Harsh I felt, but probably necessary.

I’ve had lots of good advice from friends, both personally and here on my blog over the last couple of weeks and for that I am really really grateful – thank you.  It means so much to me that you are all sticking by me and giving me your best advice to try and help.

In the words of another friend:

Remember that food is effectively medicine.

Question your choices by asking yourself what nutrients, vitamins and minerals you are actually putting in, is it enough, are they the right mix of nutrients that your body needs in the day to build, repair and maintain your cells!

If the choice has little goodness then change it before it hits the lips!

You only have one body …..look after it!

Totally taking that on board – food is effectively medicine – such a good analogy.

So here’s to the new week – bring it on!

Carpe Diem x

Ps: oh yes, the two photos although totally unrelated to my weight-loss journey are of a lovely tree right outside our house.  Quite simply, it makes me happy and I smile every time I see it with such pretty blossom on it – long may it last (nasty wind and rain please stay away).  So I thought I’d share it with you all x

To find out how my weight-loss journey has gone from week one, you can read my up-dates here…

Week 16 weigh-in…

Yesterday was that time of the week for my ‘weekly weigh-in‘.

I have to be honest (as that’s what this blog is all about) and admit that last week wasn’t the best all round.  For some reason I wasn’t feeling it and so I’ll come clean about the fact that a few naughties passed my lips and no doubt headed straight down onto my hips!

So let’s get on with it – – – Day 105, Monday, 13 April – – – a 1lb gain.

Total loss to date:  8lb.

I’m  not at all surprised and not even upset as I knew there would be a gain – I hadn’t been good enough to maintain and certainly not to lose.  In fact I was pleasantly surprised that it was only a 1lb gain.

Not good though and I MUST TRY HARDER!!!!!  I’m also realising that I’m not drinking as much water so I must make a special effort to start drinking more.

I feel like I’m letting myself down and need to shake this.

Let’s see what I can do this week and hope for a better result.

Carpe Diem x

To find out how my weight-loss journey has gone from week one, you can read my up-dates here…

Week 15 weigh-in and the food diary…

As promised from my previous weigh-in, here’s my brief daily diary for last week:

Monday:  Not too bad a day food wise, although having been food shopping and bought in supplies of hot cross buns (well it is Easter at the end of the week / weekend) I had to give them the taste test with a cup of tea.

Had a nice walk with the pooch in the sunshine so hopefully burnt off those calories. Idiot; should have put Runkeeper on – must remember next time.

Tuesday:  A good day and took two healthy fruit options to munch on at work.  Question:  Yes or No to bananas – I read such conflicting views and I really don’t know if I should or I shouldn’t?!

Healthy fruit option

Wednesday:  A busy day out and about and didn’t even stop for a Costa.  Later pm went a little bit off plan…

Thursday:  Flapjack in the kitchen at work – had two small squares with a cup of tea.

Friday:  Good Friday and had family over for the day.  We had a very healthy salmon bake for lunch which was yum, but was followed by an extremely unhealthy but delish trifle that mum made.

Feeling I have lost the plot at the moment and am, if I’m honest, dreading the next few days of Easter.  On a positive – only one glass of wine.

Saturday:  Not too bad a day food wise I don’t think.  Two vodka oj’s which I think is less calories than wine.

Sunday:  Up to the Outlaws for an over-nighter and LOTS OF FOOD.  It has to be said that my mother-in-law is a good cook and likes nothing more than feeding her tribe.

Unfortunately, I don’t have any self control when food is in front of me… and looks and smells sooooo yummy.


Being a complete blonde bimbo at times, I forgot that it was Easter this week and that with having successfully completed my giving up chocolate for Lent, that I might (more than likely) be wanting to partake in a little bit of chocolate to celebrate my achievement.

Easter chocolate bunny

Derrrrr!  Subsequently it wasn’t the best week and in particular, not the best end to the week from Good Friday onwards.  The only saving grace – I was feeling poorly over most of Easter and so the good news is I probably didn’t partake in quite as much scrummy food as I would have done had I been feeling 100%.

My weigh-in was a day late (having been at the Outlaws yesterday) and so I dragged the scales out this morning with some dread it has to be said.  I was not expecting a loss.  In fact it crossed my mind that even a 2lb gain would be a lucky escape.

So, at week 15 how did I do?  Day 99 and 1lb off = 9lbs loss in total.

Not sure how that has happened if I’m honest, but I’ll take it and run (metaphorically speaking)… however, must try harder this week.

What’s going to stop me?  Well it is half term and that means MasterB and friends are going to be around with tempting treats and days out (hopefully if the weather nice enough) with picnics – much self control is needed.

Come on, I really really REALLY want to have lost one stone by holiday time.

In the words of a friend:  ‘FOCUS WOMAN, FOCUS!

Until next time…

Carpe Diem x

To find out how my weight-loss journey has gone from week one, you can read my up-dates here…

If I’m honest…

… it wasn’t a great week last week.

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It was *whispers* that dreaded time of the month, which on an entirely different note seems to be getting worse as I’m getting older, boo, and so I had a bit of an attack of the munchies … which kind of lasted all week.

Not every day was bad, but it certainly wasn’t my best week on the new healthy ‘me’ plan.

I was prepared this morning for a ‘put on’ and knew that to be honest that would be acceptable as I hadn’t been 100%.  We even had chips one night as MrD was particularly late home and neither of us could be bothered to cook anything that late.

So day 91 and 14 weeks in – surprise then when the scales showed yet another stayed the same!  That’s now the third week at the same weight; Grrrrrrr!!  And with now just around five weeks until our much awaited holiday in Antigua.

Having gotten away with it for this past week, phew, I know I need to make an extra effort this week and actually achieve a loss.  So I’ve decided that I will blog at the end of each day as to how the day has gone (I wont post them until next week all in one go as it might become a tad boring to read each day, so I’ll save that enjoyment for next Monday lol).

Come on – I’m gonna do it this week!!!!!! *determined face*

Carpe Diem x

To view my weight loss journey to date, click here…

Week ten – how’s it going?

It’s Monday and today was ‘weigh-in‘ morning – that dreaded time of the week when the scales come out and I stand on them with my fingers crossed waiting for that digital number to show itself… grrrr!

You may (or not) have noticed that there’s been another week missing and if you did, you probably guessed that it wasn’t a great one.

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So, week nine (Day 54) was, in my own words, scrawled in my food diary ‘Crap, awful, dreadful‘.  Hmmmm not good.  *whispers* it was in fact a 3lb gain.  Hmmmm really not good.  I knew I hadn’t been on it and I guess I deserved the +3.  Talk about yo-yo!

Last week, due to two birthdays and a fantastic WIN over on Twitter, I had no less than three meals out.  Yikes, I wasn’t looking forward to seeing what those scales were gonna tell me this morning.  Anyway, I took a deep breath and prayed … week ten (Day 62) and 2lb off (phew back in the right direction) making my total to date 7lbs; back to that magic half a stone.

It’s really not going great guns is it?  With only nine weeks until Antigua I REALLY need to start getting a bit more serious about this as I am seriously behind the target I set myself.

So I’ve sat and ogled beautiful pictures of Antigua to remind myself just how glorious it looks and how I SERIOUSLY NEED TO BE ONE STONE LIGHTER!!!! *yes that’s a shouty voice* Thus enabling me to enjoy the whole experience more and not feel quite so self-conscious throughout the holiday.

Beautiful Antigua - image via Concierge.com

Beautiful Antigua – image via Concierge.com

So I’m telling myself ‘Come on girl, get a grip and focus and let’s keep the scales going downward rather than up and down!’. #Monday’sWarCry

Carpe Diem x

Slowly but surely…

Today is Monday which means it’s weigh-in day!

Truth be told, I wasn’t entirely looking forward to jumping on those scales this morning, as last week hadn’t been the best.  A few of the Christmas quality street (yes we still have a big container of them left) had been popped, bread had been eaten and I even had a glass of wine on a school night (Thursday) – ooops but sorry couldn’t help myself.

Quality Street in the house!

Quality Street in the house!

Needless to say I wasn’t expecting a huge loss and would actually have been happy with a ‘stayed the same’.

So, how did I do?  At week eight (day 47!! seems like a lifetime) and the scales showed – – – – I had lost 1lb.  This brings my total to 7lbs – that’s half a stone! Wooooo half a stone lighter; that’s got to be good.

It has to be said though that this is definitely a slowly but surely approach.  However, at less than 1lb per week I’m still behind my schedule which is annoying and frustrating amongst other words I could use.

This can mean only one thing – I have to raise it up a notch this week and I really want to see myself 2lbs lighter this time next week.  I’m going to go all out and try my absolute hardest to hit this mini-target for the week.

What’s going to stop me?  This week is half term, so undoubtedly there will be more ‘treats’ and a visit to the cinema is planned.  MrD and myself have a ‘date night’ Thursday with a three course meal and bottle of Prosecco to enjoy, so I need to chose wisely.  Despite this I want to see those scales telling me I’ve lost 2lbs so BRING IT ON I say!!

Carpe Diem x